Jerry,
Boy your getting an update on my daughter Theresa sooner then I would be writing about anything out of the ordinary happening. Yesterday morning, Theresa woke up with higher blood sugar of about 300, so she got 8NPH, and 5 Humalog which brought her down to what she should be. She had breakfast at 8:30 after her shot, a snack at school at 10pm, and low and behold at noon for lunch, she was trying to be responsible since she knew her sugar was high that morning, and the little devil decided not to eat but a rabbits nibble of her lunch (she said a juice, and a little bit of spagetti, as we let her buy her lunch at school which I very RARELY do)… so when she got to the daycare provider (who also happens to be diabetic, and has been since she was my daughters age) at 3 pm. She was 42!!!! forty two! So the daycare provider gave her a snack, and when we got her home at 6 she was about 175. I fed them a light dinner, and headed off to the store, leaving her here with my
husband, he gave her a shot of 8nph, and 5 humalog again same as he had in the morning without thinking…. oh my god… i got home ready to give my girls (i have 3, 2 besides theresa their bedtime snacks, and theresa was already out….. which made me very suspicious. So I was like hunny, how much insulin did you give her, and when he told me I went bolistic. I went in my daughters room, and tried to wake her … IMPOSSIBLE, I lifted her up and she kept going right back down.. so I picked her up and put her in my lap facing me, and started talking to her, and tested her blood sugar… she was 61, this was about 9:30 pm…. I knew she would drop way too low if I didnt act fast as she doesnt get up for school till about 7am. So I actually almost used a Gluagon ER Kit for the first time, but when she saw that she freaked out.. she went into that hysteria phase that cannot be stopped, and thats when I knew she wasnt gonna eat or drink, I had to take control. It was so hard
since I hadnt ever done this, but saw nurses have to do it to her in the hospital when she was first diagnosed, but I had to hold her down, and ram a tube of glucose gel down her throat. I thought she was going to gag on it, but I got her to swallow it all. It took her 30 minutes laying on the floor in my room, to calm down and go back to sleep. And when I was trying to calm her, she used her heartwrenching line on me.. “mommy i dont wanna be diabetic anymore… I just want to be dead” I broke right out in tears… I cried so long and hard, that i have a sore throat today from it. I feel so bad for her, at times I wish there was some way that she could possibly know how much I love her, and how lucky I feel to still have her in my life, she is my miracle, my angel, and god blessed me with her. Well when she got up this morning at 7, after this whole episode last night, can you believe that she was 47! forty seven… still low, I guess had I not gave her the gel she would
have been in a coma, so I had her eat a bowl of cereal to get her # up…. I kept her out of school today so I could more closely monitor her. I gave her a light lunch and a light dinner, and she has been running 2-300’s all day. It was cold today, perhaps she caught something. But Jerry this is the biggest up and down roller coaster of #’s I have seen with her in soooooo long. The last entire month up until 3 days ago, she was stable, and on the same average… now it’s like the diabetes has come to attack her again. I tell her if she can keep it undr control, it will help it go away. But she is starting to hate me for it, cause no matter how hard she tries sometimes, it just doesnt help her.
I’m glad after her last dr appt, where her hba1c was up slighty I decided to get her back in 7 weeks rather then 12. So she will go back the end of October. I called her Nurse frantic in the middle of the night last night after this happened, so she stopped by to see us today in
the afternoon, which was great support. I will probably call and try to get her in to be soon sooner.. if not by the endo, at least by an on call. Any support from those of you who have dealt with this disease much longer then I would be greatly appreciated. As I said my daycare provider is diabetic, and I listen and pick up as much as I can from her, but it is always good to get as many aspects of this as you can from whoever is willing to share. Every day I wish I could take the diabetes away from her and give it to myself, I know I cant, but I still wish it. I even wonder if I gave her diabetes somehow by eating ice creme or drinking a soda while I was pregnant. I know it sounds totally silly, but noone in my family has this, and now my baby is dealing with it. I hope to get her in a camp they are having near me around christmas time for 3 days, the only one near us till next spring. I hope she can meet other kids with this, and understand how un-alone she is in this. She
is a fighter, but her spirits starting to shatter, and I cant let that happen.
I hope everyone in the group is well, as well as your familes. Take care and thanks for allowing me the opportunity to have a place to share, with people who understand and care. I appreciate it more then any of you could know
Angela (mom of theresa)