I can’t believe I just joined a diabetes group
My 10 year old daughter was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes one week
ago. And I am mad, I’m upset, I’m falling apart. Everyone keeps
telling me it could be so much worse. Duh! I know that. But am I
supposed to thank God that He only gave my daughter this disease over
a much worse one. Yes, I know this can be managed. Yes, I know I
could have been given a much worse diagnoses. Yes, I know they could
have told me my daughter had cancer and that there was nothing they
could do. Then I would be in the position of not being able to help
my daughter. I know with diabetes it can be controlled. I know my
daughter can live a “normal” life. But I am not happy about it. Why
does everyone think I should jump for joy because it’s not something
worse. I don’t want to do this everyday. Most of all I don’t want
my daughter to have to do this for the rest of her life. Everyone
thinks we are handling this so well. Well then, we need to go to
Hollywood because we are great actresses. We are not handling it. We
are coping with it. Do they not realize that we have no choice. We
have to “handle” it. But inside we are falling apart. I do not want
to hear that it could be worse. I do not want to hear that it will
get better. It will never get better we will just get used to it. We
will never like it. I do not need a pep talk. I need someone to let
me scream and cry and rant and rave. I do not want to be strong. I
don’t want to pretend that we are fine just so others can go on and
not have to worry about us. Can people not see through these masks we
are wearing?
November 10th, 2003 at 10:12 pm
I know how you feel too. My son had just turned 6 when he was diagnosed, last Oct. Feel free to send me your phone number, I will call you and we can talk. It helps to know another mom with a child with diabetes. I was overwhelmed with 3 kids before he was even diagnosed…
Benita
My 10 year old daughter was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes one week
ago. And I am mad, I’m upset, I’m falling apart. Everyone keeps
November 12th, 2003 at 4:44 pm
My 10 year old daughter was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes one week
ago. And I am mad, I’m upset, I’m falling apart.
For what it is worth I so know how you are feeling, and feel for you at the same time…….
I wanted a ‘natural’ waterbirth, ended up with a C-section and all the drugs in the world in hospital……I got over that disappointment and went my ‘natural’ drugfree way from here on……..13 months later and my perfect little girl was diagnosed type 1…….Always against GE I now inject GE Modified insuline….. Guess someone was trying to tell me something…..
A friend with a six yr old type one son told me that she mourned for two years, and was told it would take that long. She said it was true, it really took her two whole years to come to terms with it all.
Rant and cry, I still do, and I have a year and a half to go of it !
November 13th, 2003 at 4:41 am
I don’t know if either of you have God in your heart or people praying for you but I was able to come to terms with it all in a week and I know it’s because I had several people praying for us. Prayer really does help. If you haven’t given your life over to God/Jesus, now would be the perfect time! He really does take away the pain and fills your life with love! For example, my life was really troubled and my marriage was pretty much dead for 16 years when my husband and I asked Jesus into our hearts. It fills that empty feeling you’ve had in your life. I’m no longer looking for that love. And now my marriage is 200% better and I’m really happy!! I still feel bad my son has diabetes but now I think maybe God has given it to him for a reason, maybe he’s going to find the cure some day! If he wasn’t given diabetes, why would he find the cure? He’s really smart and I think God will use him for this purpose. If not that, he will have another very important purpose in life. We
all have gifts and a purpose, we just have to find them. I believe it is something we really love because God gives you gifts that you love or you love what God gives you! Sorry to preach but this is what has helped me….
Benita PS. Think of it this way… since your child has contracted diabetes, why not try to get something positive out of it? It doesn’t help anyone to think negative thoughts (why me??) etc all the time so if we can turn it into something positive and explain that to our children, we will all feel better I think. It doesn’t mean I told tell my son I know how terrible it is when he doesn’t want to test or be stuck with the long needle to change his pump site, etc. and I always tell him it’s ok to cry, but I don’t act like we’ve been cursed either. IT’s just a whole different way of looking at it. What is your name and I’ll pray for you (the woman who’s child was just diagnosed??)
B.
Guess someone was trying to tell me something…..
A friend with a six yr old type one son told me that she mourned for two years, and was told it would take that long. She said it was true, it really took her two whole years to come to terms with it all.
Rant and cry, I still do, and I have a year and a half to go of it !