end of my rope
I spent Tuesday night in the hospital. I went to the doctor thinking I was in dka….I just couldn’t get my sugars under 300. At the hospital I ended up bottoming out and needing sugar. I was also dehydrated, but no one could get an iv into me so I left in the same condition. I feel like I am chronically dehydrated. I am really upset with my doc, cuz she was supposed to order a picc line (special iv) and didn’t do it.
I am at the end of my rope with this disease. Whatever I do, my numbers always seem to be off. I just don’t want to do it anymore. I know I probably sound whiny, but I am really stressed with school and my health, and I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to handle the daily ups and downs. Part of me wants to go back into the hospital and let someone else worry about it.
Just needed to vent.
Jenny
–
All who see me jeer at me; they
toss their heads and sneer…
Oh God, my God, why have you
abandonded me?
–Psalm 22
April 16th, 2004 at 3:18 pm
Jenny,
I’m sorry to hear you are having such a tough go. I know you said you just needed to vent, but I wanted to share some thoughts with you. Stress, all by itself, throws my sugars way off. Add in anger & worry, and it will knock you on your butt. If you feel that your doc isn’t listening or doing her job, try to find another one who WILL listen. I spent several years with a doc who didn’t really care or listen & I feel he is part of the reason I am so scared of the pump these days. I now have a doc that gives me all the facts and tells me what my options are, then lets me decide how we proceed. Feeling like I have control of what my action plan is has helped me actually take control of my diabetes. If you ever want to talk, let me know & I will get you my telephone #. I know it isn’t easy, but please don’t think it can’t be done. The support end is what WE are all here for, so I’m glad to do anything I can to help.
Best wishes,
Stacy