i need help

for the past couple days i’ve really struggled with high numbers. tuesday i talked with my endocrinologist three times…for me, i was taking huge boluses; between 18-20 units every three hours. My insulin might as well have been water….it did nothing to bring my numbers down. i eventually ended up in the ER with iv fluids and some iv insulin. Got me down to 188 and sent me home. The next working I woke up at 441, spent most of the day in the 500s and was over 600 for a while. I went back to the ER where they did very little…they started an iv but never gave me any fluids. they gave me a little sub-q insulin. the er doc, who had a pump asked if she could borrow my pump while she talked to my endocrinologist. She came back later with two security guards. She had looked at my daily totals for the day before and determined my pump had been turned off. I know I must of done it, but I have absolutly no memory of doing it. I was working so hard to bring my sugars
down…and drinking so much water so I didn’t get dehydrated.

I took my pump off and said I didn’t want it anymore. I refused lantus. I was told I was on a 72 hour hold and I was going to get lantus, even if the security guards had to hold me down.

I’m scared and confused. I can’t see my psychiatrist until next week, and my depression is so heavy right now. what’s wrong with me??????????

jenny


All who see me jeer at me; they
toss their heads and sneer…
Oh God, my God, why have you
abandonded me?
–Psalm 22

4 Responses to “i need help”

  1. Garfield Berniece Says:

    Could you be stressed? I know if Im stressed my numbers go to the
    300’s.
    I hope you get better!
    Keri

  2. Arlen Roberts Says:

    Hi, RN,

    First of all, do you have any desire to hurt yourself, and, if so, how? You know from your nursing courses (RN2B), that you have every right to refuse any medication or any Tx the medical people may want to do. Whether or not you turned off your pump, we are all only human, and things are going to happen. It is not worthy of stressing over. Consider it a lesson learned, to check your pump if your sugars are high.

    Now that the pump is working correctly, (turned on), you should be able to get a hold on the sugars again. Lantus is not going to do any immediate good, anyway. If your sugars were that high, then humalog would have been the appropriate action, however, it cannot be given IV, but R can.

    Jenny, there is nothing wrong with you. It is normal to feel down at times, and the Tx you received in the ER did not help with your mental status. Are you on any meds for your depression? I firmly believe, that when sugars go high, it influences depression significantly. Did the depression get any better when you got things back in hand? Is there someone with you? Someone with whom you can talk? Where are you now?

    Jenny, I will keep you in my prayers this evening. Please keep up posted on how you are, and just what, exactly, the docs are wanting you to do. We can all listen quite well.

    My thoughts are with you, Jenny.

    Whatever thy hands find to do, do it with all thy might. Ecc. 9:10

    Joan Geohegan

  3. Arlen Roberts Says:

    When I was first diagnosed, it took my sugars being over 800 (yes 800, that is NOT a typo) for there to be symptoms present. Who knows how long it was elevated before the symptoms occurred….. I was 8 years old then.

    Joan

  4. Luella Buckner Says:

    Hi Robby,
    Can u plz tell me how do u calculate the avg. if u know the A1c.
    My last A1c was 7.7.
    i’m the wrong person to ask. i’ve only been at this since december. i
    can only count my average for the past few weeks. i count up the
    totals for each time i ate and bedtime, and divided them by the
    number of days in a week, 7.
    robby

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