Good Morning Jenny,
Family……. funny creatures. The can say some really stupid stuff….
We are diabetics….
Our familys are given a seat at our “proverbial table” whether they choose to or not. You don’t have to love them all the time Jenny… we only have to cope with them. They get a “seat” at the diabetes table purely because sometimes they find us unconscious, disoriented, or otherwise in “diabetes fairyland”. Worse still while we live with the disease… they are only voyeurs, and can do absolutely nothing about what we endure. They get to watch and cope… right or wrong, good or bad… they can nag, whine, cajole, plead or scream… but first and last they only get to watch, Mother, Father, fiancee, brother, wife. Anybody who loves us, gets a seat here because of their love…
Some family sympathize, and feel for what we go through. Others empathize… yet there are many who are angry that somethinng “we” or they did, (or did not do) but something that could be “controlled”, some minor factor that to their mind was “the critical piece”… had someone done something RIGHT…. well then the big IT (whatever that might be) would never have happened…. For them it’s a control issue, pure and simple.
Sounds like your mother has some major groveling in her future… she said some awful things to you, once said can never be called back…. Sounds like… in time you’ll have lots to talk about together Jenny…
If you had never existed in the first place, it would be someone, some thing that was the next source of their suffering, their latest pain. They don’t get off THAT easily, don’t you let them off that hook….
Now, in plain english Jenny… we’re always ~a couple units away~ from death. Its just that simple. Make a better choice…. find ways to laugh at the disease, your diabetes dragon… F-I-G-H-T. Whatever you do in your future Jenny whether single or married, a couple or a family… we get to write the scripts. You have experiences now which will make you an IDEAL nurse…better than others who only treat the conditions, illnesses… but never first hand had the experiences which you have had……. you are a diabetic, a woman whose had some “dark places” in your life… use those experiences….
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