Hello Liz,
Two things…
The reason the “white coats” focus on the lows, is pure and simple, because they’ll kill us instantly if the circumstances are wrong. Lows, particularly lows which “require help” will always ruin our freakin day, no????????? Nobody cares about a single high if magically somehow forced to treat ONLY one or the other (ie high/low), cure the lows first… the highs can be figured out.
As for the unawareness, look up the term BGAT (Blood Glucose Awareness Training) out of University of Virginia, person names… Cox, I believe. Bottom line, to whatever degree it IS possible for any of us to have an impact if/when “unaware”, there is excellent material coming out, some part CAN be regained. The basic idea being we stop treating our sugar level like it was a slave, always whipping it trying to keep it in line type of thing… as soon as we literally let up, for several days, keep the average “HIGHER” and small symptoms are reported to return. Even if you never do the training (I’ve never been able to get a class local to me) the HOPE, based in actual evidence, makes me feel a whole lot *@)#@)#& better!!!
Smile.
In terms of the nurse manager not paying any attention to the highs…. hey, you could be 10,000% dead right. She/they are idiots and dismissive, patting you, me all of us on the heads like little children. It could very, very well be the case, right?!
Alternate B, have blind faith with this “creature” (sic the nurse manager) and make yourself a robot. Blindly follow their/her instructions just like you were a little girl again. Worst that’s going to happen, you say ENOUGH and reassert control down the road, right? I had massive experience over everyone I was working with on my pump. Most were textbook diabetics, meaning they treated people, and I mean lots of people, just like us, but did not walk the walk themselves. (”…. oh, I see, you require me to get my *** up four days running at 1am, 3am, 5am because you say so….). Easy to say…. chuckleheads.
I obeyed. I was not happy about it period and said literally out loud many times, “I WILL OBEY” but often was opposed to their methods and ideas and said so. But I obeyed, textbook perfectly. I gave them the benefit because MY method (pre-pump) wasn’t working… whatever it was possible to do to change the outcomes, I was failing, PERIOD. I was weary and was facing my worst demons. So, I gave them my broken rent armor, my obliterated shield, my notched sword and said HERE… you know how to tame this (@#&*@#)@&#)@@ dragon, well, here you go, take my proverbial equipment and I give you it all, and threw it at them with the last of my spirit and remaining energy.
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